Honest and Unedited Ramblings on Fertility

I feel so ashamed.

I want a baby so bad it breaks my heart.

I feel like my infertility is the disgusting elephant in the room. Everybody knows but nobody says anything about it.

I feel like the best thing is to hide my face and never look at my in-laws again.

I feel so ashamed that the wife of their son has been unable to give them a grandchild.

I'm afraid I am a disappointment to them forever because I'm too old to redeem myself.

I am currently ashamed and mortified that Dusty's cousin fell pregnant after six months when we couldn't do the same in six years. I don't ever want to show my face around them again.